It started good.

& got me out of my sleep immediately in a huge shock.
Scared. Worriment.
What the heck was it supposed to mean?
I couldnt think of anything else but the 1st thing i did right after was sms-ed her.
"Are you Okay?"

I wished i could stay asleep a lil longer to save that nightmare & turn it into a good dream back.
But like she said,
" It's just a dream, don't worry too much old man "

^I was tired & sleepy.

So i head to bed.

Lying on my bed, after a few prayers.

The last thing i told myself before i knocked off was,

" I want to forget about you please "

Tiring day enjoying myself all day.
Freight Link Express Trip.
Bowling.
Movie.
Shopping.
Pool.
Break Fast at Masjid Al-Falah.
& Dinner with Turhana :)

I know i've told myself before that i would never buy anything from Topman
because the design are simply so nonsense, plus it's a badly contaminated Matrep Brand.
But i just bought 2 long sleeve tops(that pic up there), a grey and a black one.
Simple enough for me to wear to school in a cold weather.
teehee :)


& oh boy, i was definitely happy to finally to meet my dear friend.
The sensible chats we had. Your advices & opinions.
I shall keep that in mind.
& then the "yapping" part.
I enjoyed it though cos it's really fun having a young nyonya who goes on & on
from one store to another till we covered the entire mall.
*that Espirit saleslady was giggling all they because you WERE really behaving like its your store!*
all i could say to her was, " I can never understand about Girls! "
* & the lady laughed nonstop *
LOL xD

You really made my day, dear friend.
Thank you very much!
& yes, your ben&Jerry after ramadhan aite Hana.
;D
(pics uploaded on FB)

^ that's how i'll end up now.
^.^

I'm becoming Heartless by the days.
& I don't know why.

Apart from having a HUGE problem with this Blogger.

Blogger is being such a pain in the butt!

I would have spent my entire day making one very long post.
I've got tons to share.
I've got a whole load of pictures to show.

But having problems handling with Blogger kinda spoils my mood.
So i managed to change my blogskin!
I really like this one.
But i've yet to upload some profile pics here n there.
It's okay, a lil more patience will do.
Today is just the 1st day of my holiday anyway.
& i still have 55days of holiday left.
Nevertheless, i have a very PACKED Schedule ahead of me.

All i can say for now is,

Miss Universe 2009 made up my day from the start.
But i'm kinda heartbroken cos Miss Australia didn't win.
Why everytime Venezuela, or maybe some latin countries would win.
Donald Trump biased i think.
Lol xD

^ See lah! She looks even Gorgeous with light make-up!

Let me get over all these School workloads first for now.

Then i'll post up a proper update yeah?
2 Projects due tomorrow.
I'm a living dead man now.
Get it?
xD

Mom said that i'm a good boy.
Mom said that i'm a strong boy.

I'm not Good enough, Mom.
& i don't think i'm strong enough to keep holding on.

Shower me some strength Mom.
I need it, badly.

Oh My Monday
I knew i was never prepared for my Monday.

I was there holding back each & every tears as long as i could.
Until i couldn't do it anymore in the end, you knew.
( told you, you were gonna get me infected )
& i replaced them with the best smile i could ever gave you
that moment.
For i knew i couldn't lie to myself this time. I couldn't pretend it's fine.
It was too much for me to bare.
I have to accept the truth.
Even when the truth was tearing me apart.

In return, i simply couldn't just leave you there in tears.
I couldn't just leave you with no words and blame you for everything.
That would have made things even worse for you.
That's not what i want.
I've listened to everything that i didn't expected to know.
& in return, i've said everything that i wanted you to know.
I hope you remember all those things that i've told you.
Because i really mean it, honestly.

People say,
When you love someone so much, you let her go.
If she comes back, she's the one.
I'll leave all that in God's hand.

& u might be wondering how am i doing now?
How have i been coping with things now.
I'll be fine.
& you know i'll always be there if you need me.
Forever Friends we will always be.
:)

Make sure u keep that very last promise i told you.
No more _________ for all the things that has happened.
Because you have millions more reason to smile than i do.
I pray & wish you all the very best with him.
& make sure u keep smiling, because you have him.
Smile Auntie, Smile
:)

A friend once said that i'm the kind of person who always
put someone's else feeling before mine too much
when it comes to something that i really hoped for from that person.

Another friend said that perhaps i'm being to sweet and soft instead of
being a lil more aggressive and persistent.
Too much being around in the "safe zone".

To the extent that i would eventually sacrifise my own feelings,
just to make sure that someone doesn't get disappointed.
& eventually i give in, and end up suffering myself for not getting it.
They said, i should be a lil more fair towards my own self rather.

I like having these few close friends who really understands me.
& most importantly giving me honest perceptions of me.
That sometimes made me realise and reflect on myself.
A part of it, motivation. Something that i really need.

I say,
I'll have to admit that i'm a lil weak emotionally when it comes to this.
The things i do all these while, are simply just me.
I can't be someone else.
Like i've said, i don't wish to push things too hard on you.
Because it'll simply gonna make things even worse for you.
Isn't it true?
(& there i go, putting myself after you)

Stop being sorry for me please.
What's done is the past, remember?
Takecare of yourself.
:)

It started good.

& got me out of my sleep immediately in a huge shock.
Scared. Worriment.
What the heck was it supposed to mean?
I couldnt think of anything else but the 1st thing i did right after was sms-ed her.
"Are you Okay?"

I wished i could stay asleep a lil longer to save that nightmare & turn it into a good dream back.
But like she said,
" It's just a dream, don't worry too much old man "

^I was tired & sleepy.

So i head to bed.

Lying on my bed, after a few prayers.

The last thing i told myself before i knocked off was,

" I want to forget about you please "

Tiring day enjoying myself all day.
Freight Link Express Trip.
Bowling.
Movie.
Shopping.
Pool.
Break Fast at Masjid Al-Falah.
& Dinner with Turhana :)

I know i've told myself before that i would never buy anything from Topman
because the design are simply so nonsense, plus it's a badly contaminated Matrep Brand.
But i just bought 2 long sleeve tops(that pic up there), a grey and a black one.
Simple enough for me to wear to school in a cold weather.
teehee :)


& oh boy, i was definitely happy to finally to meet my dear friend.
The sensible chats we had. Your advices & opinions.
I shall keep that in mind.
& then the "yapping" part.
I enjoyed it though cos it's really fun having a young nyonya who goes on & on
from one store to another till we covered the entire mall.
*that Espirit saleslady was giggling all they because you WERE really behaving like its your store!*
all i could say to her was, " I can never understand about Girls! "
* & the lady laughed nonstop *
LOL xD

You really made my day, dear friend.
Thank you very much!
& yes, your ben&Jerry after ramadhan aite Hana.
;D
(pics uploaded on FB)

^ that's how i'll end up now.
^.^

I'm becoming Heartless by the days.
& I don't know why.

Apart from having a HUGE problem with this Blogger.

Blogger is being such a pain in the butt!

I would have spent my entire day making one very long post.
I've got tons to share.
I've got a whole load of pictures to show.

But having problems handling with Blogger kinda spoils my mood.
So i managed to change my blogskin!
I really like this one.
But i've yet to upload some profile pics here n there.
It's okay, a lil more patience will do.
Today is just the 1st day of my holiday anyway.
& i still have 55days of holiday left.
Nevertheless, i have a very PACKED Schedule ahead of me.

All i can say for now is,

Miss Universe 2009 made up my day from the start.
But i'm kinda heartbroken cos Miss Australia didn't win.
Why everytime Venezuela, or maybe some latin countries would win.
Donald Trump biased i think.
Lol xD

^ See lah! She looks even Gorgeous with light make-up!

Let me get over all these School workloads first for now.

Then i'll post up a proper update yeah?
2 Projects due tomorrow.
I'm a living dead man now.
Get it?
xD

Mom said that i'm a good boy.
Mom said that i'm a strong boy.

I'm not Good enough, Mom.
& i don't think i'm strong enough to keep holding on.

Shower me some strength Mom.
I need it, badly.

Oh My Monday
I knew i was never prepared for my Monday.

I was there holding back each & every tears as long as i could.
Until i couldn't do it anymore in the end, you knew.
( told you, you were gonna get me infected )
& i replaced them with the best smile i could ever gave you
that moment.
For i knew i couldn't lie to myself this time. I couldn't pretend it's fine.
It was too much for me to bare.
I have to accept the truth.
Even when the truth was tearing me apart.

In return, i simply couldn't just leave you there in tears.
I couldn't just leave you with no words and blame you for everything.
That would have made things even worse for you.
That's not what i want.
I've listened to everything that i didn't expected to know.
& in return, i've said everything that i wanted you to know.
I hope you remember all those things that i've told you.
Because i really mean it, honestly.

People say,
When you love someone so much, you let her go.
If she comes back, she's the one.
I'll leave all that in God's hand.

& u might be wondering how am i doing now?
How have i been coping with things now.
I'll be fine.
& you know i'll always be there if you need me.
Forever Friends we will always be.
:)

Make sure u keep that very last promise i told you.
No more _________ for all the things that has happened.
Because you have millions more reason to smile than i do.
I pray & wish you all the very best with him.
& make sure u keep smiling, because you have him.
Smile Auntie, Smile
:)

A friend once said that i'm the kind of person who always
put someone's else feeling before mine too much
when it comes to something that i really hoped for from that person.

Another friend said that perhaps i'm being to sweet and soft instead of
being a lil more aggressive and persistent.
Too much being around in the "safe zone".

To the extent that i would eventually sacrifise my own feelings,
just to make sure that someone doesn't get disappointed.
& eventually i give in, and end up suffering myself for not getting it.
They said, i should be a lil more fair towards my own self rather.

I like having these few close friends who really understands me.
& most importantly giving me honest perceptions of me.
That sometimes made me realise and reflect on myself.
A part of it, motivation. Something that i really need.

I say,
I'll have to admit that i'm a lil weak emotionally when it comes to this.
The things i do all these while, are simply just me.
I can't be someone else.
Like i've said, i don't wish to push things too hard on you.
Because it'll simply gonna make things even worse for you.
Isn't it true?
(& there i go, putting myself after you)

Stop being sorry for me please.
What's done is the past, remember?
Takecare of yourself.
:)