Should i?
If I can't understand what's going on with myself.
If I don't even realised who I've been all these while.
If I'm always in doubt about why people are acting that way.
I can't expect someone else to understand instead.
That is if you ask me.
I'm the kind of person who really cares about how others would think about me.
First Impression.
Understanding my Character & Personality.
How people see me, is the same as how i see myself in the mirror sometimes.
But most of the time, it's more of how i portray myself to the society.
Insecure you may say.
That is if you ask me.
But if you ask me what's going on with you when you don't even understand it yourself.
How can it be easy for me to explain it to you?
You have loads of friends out there.
Hiding almost every single thing from you.
Because they don't wish to hurt you, obviously.
That i know. But do you even realised that?
& to some of them, they did their part way before.
But it all comes back to you.
It's you who make choices for yourself.
Not them.
Not me.
But if you still ask me.
I'll pick up a whole lot of courage along with me.
Step up and say all the things you want to know.
On their behalf as well.
But to think again, just who am i to you?
Then & Now.
What position am i standing at?
Because one way or another, you would see it in a different way.
Jealousy, mainly.
Am i the right person to do everyone a favor?
No one can understand my position except for myself.
Same goes to you.
It all comes back to you.
Do you still want me to answer you?
Yes, i can.
Even if it's another painful step for me.
It's Okay.
I'll be fine, hopefully.
This is for you.
But bare in mind even the entire world can read this.
Even him.
I'll be waiting for a reply.
Afterall, both of us still owe each other a whole lot of explanation.
Up till now.
If I don't even realised who I've been all these while.
If I'm always in doubt about why people are acting that way.
I can't expect someone else to understand instead.
That is if you ask me.
I'm the kind of person who really cares about how others would think about me.
First Impression.
Understanding my Character & Personality.
How people see me, is the same as how i see myself in the mirror sometimes.
But most of the time, it's more of how i portray myself to the society.
Insecure you may say.
That is if you ask me.
But if you ask me what's going on with you when you don't even understand it yourself.
How can it be easy for me to explain it to you?
You have loads of friends out there.
Hiding almost every single thing from you.
Because they don't wish to hurt you, obviously.
That i know. But do you even realised that?
& to some of them, they did their part way before.
But it all comes back to you.
It's you who make choices for yourself.
Not them.
Not me.
But if you still ask me.
I'll pick up a whole lot of courage along with me.
Step up and say all the things you want to know.
On their behalf as well.
But to think again, just who am i to you?
Then & Now.
What position am i standing at?
Because one way or another, you would see it in a different way.
Jealousy, mainly.
Am i the right person to do everyone a favor?
No one can understand my position except for myself.
Same goes to you.
It all comes back to you.
Do you still want me to answer you?
Yes, i can.
Even if it's another painful step for me.
It's Okay.
I'll be fine, hopefully.
This is for you.
But bare in mind even the entire world can read this.
Even him.
I'll be waiting for a reply.
Afterall, both of us still owe each other a whole lot of explanation.
Up till now.
