Save Me From Myself

away

2010-03-04T11:18:00.002+08:00

I see you, when i see you.

Till then.

i can't forget

2010-03-03T19:28:00.004+08:00

Rindukan Waktu Dulu, Berlalu

Hanya sesaat

detik terhenti itulah

tercapai

keharumannya

keindahan madah.

Hanya seketika itu

tertera yang dirindu

mendakap ingatan

manis

dan kasih.

Tak mungkin diulang

tak mungkin dikecapi lagi.

by Abdul Ghani Hamid

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Longing For Lost Time, It Passed

Just for a second

when time stops

grasp

its fragrance

beauty of a poem.

Just that moment

your love appears

hugging memories

sweet

and affectionate.

It won't recur

won't be felt again.

translated by Isa Kamari

it is called "asset"

2010-03-03T00:41:00.004+08:00

There isn't any Silat training yet.
I'm not prepared for the upcoming friendly.
Lazy bummer when it comes to hitting the tracks.
So i made 2 choice; Swimming & Gym.

Been hitting the gym quite frequent recently.
Goodness i really miss the environment.
Concentrating more on the upper body.

So i was hoping for some random people to come across and ask that typical question,
"Have you been hitting the gym honey?"

But instead, i've been getting alot of the,
"Damn, you really have a nice ass Syarif"

Oh come on, give me a break.
Knock it off. I get it!
How many times must i answer,
" I got it from my momma "

Well I'm bringing sexyback,

Yeahhh!!!~

teehee ;D

I learn. I apply.

2010-03-02T00:20:00.004+08:00

Stage 1. 2. 3. 4.

Ikhtiar. Doa. Tawakkal. Redha.

Effort. Prayer. Resignation. Contentment.

I never knew how much i have put in at the 1st stage at times.
That's when i realised that i should have done more.

Trying my best to fulfill the 2nd one. Because only He has the answers to all.

The 3rd stage is the part where i hafta to wait.
Came along Ms. Worriment and Ms. Question Mark joining me.

And finally the last one.
Has always been the hardest part.

To all the values that i learnt and applied.
Somehow it makes the heavy heart feels a lil bit lighter.
& i keep telling myself, Patience has its Reward.

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I'm not angry.
Why should i?

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I'll try, even if.
I am not ready to stop worrying about you.
Somebody slap my face & tell me to forget about you please.

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I'm Okay.....

if that's what you want me to say.

Who are you?

2010-02-28T21:35:00.004+08:00

A random selection of contacts in my phonebook.
(about 20plus i think)
Mainly those who are meaningful to my life.
I apologise if i might have missed out some of you friends out there.
Consists of both Genders.
At 2 different timings.
The only thing that i sent to this group of people was simply just

:)

Here are the responses(somewhat in order from 1st to last) :-

Wat u want boy? Smile smile-_-

Asal kau senyum kat aku pukul 1 pagi?

hie! Whats up with the smiley face? Lol.

Aik! Helo good morning! What's up?:-)

Wow what a lovely surprise. An unexpected msg,haha. May i ask whats up with the smiley face tgh2 hari ni? Hehe:-)

0.0 ape kene dgn kau? Hahah.

Lain mcm je bro.jgn tumbuk aku eh.haha.btw on 5th march free?night cycling agh

?? ( a few hours later he wrote back a smiley on my FB wall )

Why? What? Haha. ( few hours later..) Why the smile?

Huh..? :(

Just a random message to say that i miss you! Xxx.

Huh what?

u send me a sms smiley for ? or accidentally ?

( one even called me back to ask why )

(all the answers are exactly copy pasted, word by word)

Obviously, not each and everyone of them replied.
As i expected, some of those whom i was hoping for a reply, sadly did not.
However surprisingly, some replies are from the unexpected ones!

I'm curious. How would people respond to such randomness.
MY randomness, to be exact.
Some would think that it's really lame.
Most of them replied with a Question mark. Not knowing what's going on.

The first person to reply me asked,
" So who has the worst response? I bet it's mine! *chuckles* "

I said,
" No, it's not yours. To me the worst response were all those who DID NOT even respond. Especially those whom i was hoping would reply me with interesting responses, sadly Did Not. "

Well i'm not gonna be too judgmental on those who did not replied because some of them might have reasonable reasons, like their phones are down or whatsoever. But how about those you simply just didn't bother to text back?
That, i wonder.

I wonder what kind of a friend they are to me. Or perhaps, more precisely, who am i to them.
By looking back again at some of those responses i get from some of them up there, somewhat gave me a picture of what kind of a person they are. How close am i to their lovely hearts.

Up till now, i still feel that those 2 persons who replied me with just a simple smiley back are the Best reply i ever wished for. I was sharing a cab back home with one of them the night before and the last time i met the other one was almost a month back. Yes, a simple and sincere smile back at me is all i was hoping for!
How hard is that?

Many would say that i'm the kind of a person who is always ready with a sincere smile.
One told me that i'm contagious. When i'm happy, people around me will turn happy as well.
The close ones are those who would surely know that i haven't been bringing along with me that smile of mine lately. They kept asking me, " What's wrong? ".

You may say that it's really Lame, Nonsense or even Pathetic of me with such randomness.
But to me, it's somehow one of the ways i made a Realisation towards my Surroundings.
My Life with Colourful Friends.

Now tag something, if you're one of those who received a smiley from me.
:)

now or later?

2010-02-23T23:59:00.004+08:00

*shrugs*

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My all-time favourite sweetheart when it comes to watching those old malay movies;

Zaiton

Luckily you very old already, if not i tackle you yannow
lol ^^

to whom it may concern

2010-02-23T01:49:00.004+08:00

Dear Love,

I'm sorry for being selfish lately. I have abandon my responsibilities as a man for more than a month already. I didn't mean to forget about you. I'm really sorry because i keep procrastinating all those wonderful things that i was supposed to do to ensure that you are always with me. I hate myself for treating you like this. The more you keep fading away from me, the more it kills me. Please forgive me baby. Give me a little bit more time. Give me a second chance for me to regain back all my strength so i can be with you again. I beg you not to leave me. I can't imagine myself without you, my beautiful abs.
:(

One & only,
Syarif

Aku semakin Boncet.
Oh Tidak.
:(

Now you talk about respect

2010-02-21T15:52:00.002+08:00

Today started out to be really good.
Mixing with a bunch of positive people.
Sharing Opinions and Knowledge.
But the moment i reached home, it felt the other way round.
HOME is supposed to be peaceful isn't it?

That's it.
I'm going back to Granny's tomorrow.

teehee^^

2010-02-21T00:39:00.001+08:00

Eh! Eh! Eh! Eh!
:D

we both wonder

2010-02-20T21:18:00.003+08:00

How would you feel?

What would you do?

If one day you realised that it's gone.
The spark. It's just slowly fading away.
Knowing that you can't reignite the flame that you once had.
In your heart.

How would you feel if it's gone again.
This time round.

I'm not supposed to look back.
But at the same time, i'm really scared to look forward.
It makes me feel like i'm just a little boy who knows nothing about life.
I guess i'm still am a little boy.
At heart.

It's getting near

2010-02-11T18:33:00.003+08:00

5 down, 2 to go.

I can't wait for my holiday.

It's getting near. Really near.

So what's gonna happen next?

Oh boy, i've already have quite a busy schedule jotted down till April.

Well there's more to be added to that busy schedule already.

They had their say.

Shouting out their opinions straight from their mind & heart.

Those are the close ones, whom i seldom spent time with.

Proud to see how i've been doing all these while.

But at the same time, disappointment.

I'll still try to dig some time out of my schedule for them

For myself at least.

Yes, i need time for myself first.

Then there's surely time for people whom are important to my life.

& also a space for someone special to share a part of my life.

I'll try my best

Such a cliche

2010-02-10T02:01:00.004+08:00

“So here’s a piece of advice; let go when you’re hurting too much, give up when love isn’t enough, and move on when things are not like before. For sure there is someone out there who will love you even more.”

The fist & knuckles just went straight to the metal cupboard.
There's a little dent there.
Now that's anger from deep inside.
Overwhelming Anger = Potential Energy
Which could generate quite alot of Kinetic Energy.

In all honesty, I can't wait to get it over and done with.
Cause the feeling is killing me softly on the inside.

Maybe one day I'll write pages,
about how I'm always try to fight the feelings that coincide.

adorable parents

2010-02-09T00:03:00.002+08:00

*Ayah watching James Bond - Tomorrow Never Dies all night*
*Ibu tired & sleepy finishing her work*

Ibu : Ayah, later you massage my shoulder a little okay? My body aching lah.

Ayah: Eh alamak.. Tomorrow lah.. Tomorrow Never Die seh!

Ibu: Hish! Later lah. If not you watch out ah. Tomorrow you die ah. Don't macam2 ah.

Ayah: Eh fierce seh! Ok lah ok lah! I massage lah.

Ibu never fails to make me laugh with her random lameshits.
Especially when she's sleepy.
& watching tv with Ayah has always been a bad idea.
He never fails to behave as if he's the director.
*while watching Projek Cerpen with him just now*
"Eh anak kau lari rumah dah balik pe. Tak payah nak kecoh2 ah beb!"
:D

pit stop from assignments

2010-02-01T00:03:00.004+08:00

Romeo shouted,
" Hold on my dear! I don't think a packet of Gillette would be enough. I'll go get some more! "

no links

2010-01-25T11:32:00.003+08:00

I find that the previous post is somehow a little too much of details.

So i deleted some parts of it.

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Saturday's friendly match with NYP was a great experience.
Getting my ass kicked is the best way for me to reflect & learn.

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I'm so pissed with my maid.
She thinks she's the boss now since she's been long enough with us already.
Still wanna threaten me?
Bring it on.
I'm not afraid of you.

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The part where i have to bare with all this aching pain.
Bruises.
It is so not nice.

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I'm getting addicted to your voice.
:)

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I'm putting aside all my problems.
I'm putting aside all my pain.
Because i know,
I'm Happy
:)

PMS

2010-01-23T01:02:00.006+08:00

The biggest scar still remains the same.
While here i am preparing a new knife to have another deep cut.
I simply need more faith in these kind of feelings.

& still hate the fact when the close ones would simply notice it
easily while i simply dont realised how much strange im behaving lately.
All i could say was,
" I'm Okay "

I don't know~

2010-01-21T00:21:00.003+08:00

Today i went to the school library.
Today is the longest time i spent at the school library as a Poly student.
No, i wasn't busy searching for books.
Neither was i flirting with any of the librarians.
Today i borrowed Twilight Blu Ray CD from the library.
So i spent 2 hours in the library watching Twilight movie.

I know, i'm so lagged behind, Twilight is so yesterday.
New Moon was out quite some time even.
But hey, guess what!
I'm not a fan of all this vampire story at all but i really did enjoyed watching the movie!
However, i still feel that Edward Cullen acting is kinda weird.
I don't know if Robert Patterson can't act properly or he's just doing what the director ask him to.
But i like the movie.
And oh, i really feel that Jacob looked like a freaking gay with that bloody long hair in Twilight.

The End

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"Someone" simply have to stop me from enjoying my wonderful dream
for the past few days and ask me to wake up.
Kinda heart-breaking though, having to put aside my lovely msPillow and hit the shower.
But guess what, i've been coming to class quite early than before actually.
That's good!

& i kinda like having to hear the voice every morning actually.
It gives a good headstart for the day.
:)

food is love

2010-01-17T16:10:00.003+08:00

DEAL WITH IT
;)

I can't breathe properly

2010-01-16T15:06:00.002+08:00

Weekends are the only time we get to spent time teasing and laughing at each other.
Prrecious Family Time.

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Prettiest Friend - Jason Mraz

" i wrote this for my prettiest friend
who while trying not to prove that i care
trying not to make all my moves in one motion and scare her away
well she can't see she's making me crazy now
i don't believe she knows she's amazing how
she has me holding my breathe
so i'd never guess that i'm a none such unsuitable, suitable for her

but if you ask me
the feeling that i'm feeling is complimentery
and oh it goes to show
the moral of the story is boy loves girl
and so on the way that it unfolds is yet to be told "

*bites lip*

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Since yesterday morning.
I've never felt this bad before.
Entire body aching.
Too much painful.
That as if i've never had a body ache before.
I feel like vomiting.
I feel like i'm gonna collapsed anytime.
Oh well, i've been pretending way too much i guess.
Always trying hard to hide the pain.
That's the problem with me.

*opps, i blog about it anyway*

1st day

2010-01-05T00:42:00.003+08:00

Back then when i was 6 years old plus.
1st day of Primary school.
Crying & begging dad not to leave me once we reached the school gate.
& because of that, THE SCHOOL PRINCIPAL was kind enough to fetch
lil Syarif from the school gate and bring him to the hall, for a week!
Yes, how special right? ^^
Just how shiny can a Primary 1 boy's forehead be huh?
Lol xD

Well i can't remember where's that schoolbag of mine is now.
High socks was the IN-thing.
The jendol still here to stay.
The orchids are obviously dead.
& that's 10 years ago!

^But as for these 2 darlings of mine.
Nelly & Qistina.
It's their turn now!
I hope my two lovely nieces enjoyed their 1st day of primary school.
They are way much brave & smart than i was.
I'm sure they didnt cry.
Because they promised me they won't.

How fast time flies right?
Oh yes,
hello Mr. 2010
;)

Sinetron msn

2010-01-04T00:29:00.003+08:00

_* SYARIF *_ ♥ says:
Shikin

[c=10]-=[cheekyzx]=- [/c] [c=4] ♥[/c] & he says, you're PERFECTLY fine to me, Awwwwwwwwww. says:
yes huney

_* SYARIF *_ ♥ says:
dont honey2 me please
you abandon me now you still wanna honey2 me

[c=10]-=[cheekyzx]=- [/c] [c=4] ♥[/c] & he says, you're PERFECTLY fine to me, Awwwwwwwwww. says:
WAHHHHHH
i abandon you?!
YOU ABANDON ME FIRST!
busy with your drama silat and work and school!
huh! you tinggalkan i you cakap i macam gini lagi.
sampai hati you.

_* SYARIF *_ ♥ says:
i was busy with work n commitments. you were there busy with uncountable number of guys
how can i not be mad?!
i worked hard to earn money for us
and this is how you repay me?!

[c=10]-=[cheekyzx]=- [/c] [c=4] ♥[/c] & he says, you're PERFECTLY fine to me, Awwwwwwwwww. says:
you should be in my shoes to see the number of guys thats even contacting me please!
you were away.
where else can i turn to?
you were busy with wealth, money and your passion
till you forget your responsibilities at home.

_* SYARIF *_ ♥ says:
Come on shikin. Im trying my best to let you live with all the wealth i can give you

[c=10]-=[cheekyzx]=- [/c] [c=4] ♥[/c] & he says, you're PERFECTLY fine to me, Awwwwwwwwww. says:
im not asking for wealth.
all im asking is for you to be there for me.

_* SYARIF *_ ♥ says:
But i told you i needed some time to reach out for my dream
give me time
you didnt wait for me shikin

[c=10]-=[cheekyzx]=- [/c] [c=4] ♥[/c] & he says, you're PERFECTLY fine to me, Awwwwwwwwww. says:
shikin is time.
and time waits for no one anymore.

_* SYARIF *_ ♥ says:
thats it, we're done!

[c=10]-=[cheekyzx]=- [/c] [c=4] ♥[/c] & he says, you're PERFECTLY fine to me, Awwwwwwwwww. says:
SO THATS IT?
URE RUNNING AWAY?
HUH
URE GONNA LEAVE ME JUST FOR THE SAKE OF UR DREAMS?!
WHO AM I TO YOU ANYWAY!!!!!!

_* SYARIF *_ ♥ says:
YOU'RE EVERYTHING TO ME!
BUT WHY CANT YOU JUST UNDERSTAND MY POSITION
WHY?!

[c=10]-=[cheekyzx]=- [/c] [c=4] ♥[/c] & he says, you're PERFECTLY fine to me, Awwwwwwwwww. says:
im sorry baby... you're just not the guy i knew and Love anymore..
i have to leave..

_* SYARIF *_ ♥ says:
i thought you're just the right girl that'll always be by my side.
I was wrong
How stupid can i be

[c=10]-=[cheekyzx]=- [/c] [c=4] ♥[/c] & he says, you're PERFECTLY fine to me, Awwwwwwwwww. says:
i was stupid to have wait for you till now.
im leaving and im not coming back.
we're over.

_* SYARIF *_ ♥ says:
Leave. & dont come back!
I hate myself for loving you all this while
I hate you!

[c=10]-=[cheekyzx]=- [/c] [c=4] ♥[/c] & he says, you're PERFECTLY fine to me, Awwwwwwwwww. says:
and i hate you more. for leaving me like that.
you will never, ever be part of my living memory.

_* SYARIF *_ ♥ says:
Great! Finally we agree on something!
urggh!

& They Split.
THE END

Our Princess

2009-12-31T02:28:00.002+08:00

I Love My Sister.
Deal with it.
;D

& to those Matreps out there who's trying to date her out.
Deal with me first.
and oh, mind you.
There's another Big Brother.
So dream on okay?
;P

when the powers combine

2009-12-29T23:24:00.003+08:00

Not it's not the Captain Planet.
It's just the 2 of them.
I didn't know that the power of
1 Nonya + 1 Makcik
could make me this weak.

^Iratating Ira & Wanotating Wano

Somehow i feel regret for combining a MSN Conversation between the 2 of them.
They Bully me yannow.
See, pity Syarif.

But in the other hand, they never fail to bring a smile on my face all night.
& i have no idea why i felt so hungry also.

Pancakes Soon
;)

Lakukaracha!

2009-12-26T16:12:00.004+08:00

Hola people!

When Dad mentioned something like,
"Ahh serve him right. I told him not to over exert himself.
End up gonnna waste my money paying for his medical bills."

The only thing i have in mind was,
"Okay that's it. I'm not gonna asked him to bring me to the clinic or something."

Self-treatment for the past couple of days & it's showing good progress.
Oh my stubborn head cant wait to start back kicking someone else's ass for sure!
*evil laughs*

& for the meantime, it's Family time.
Gonna have a surprise birthday party cum karaoke sessions later on.
Driving off straight to Melaka for a quick holiday tonight.
I can't wait for the seafood feast!
That'll probably be the best cure for this pain of mine xD

Anyhoots!
Im in a Dilemma!
Which one should i buy for my 2010 schoolbag huh?
^ Barbie

or
^ Tweety

Be back on Monday lovelies!
;)

More than ever

2009-12-25T16:15:00.004+08:00

To a point when the people around are tired of advising me.
The stubborn me.
"Be careful. Don't over exert yourself."

"Yes, I know." that's my usual reply.
Still, there's always a part of me that wants to do Everything!

& too spice up to that ego.
A self mistake has caused myself a big suffer.

Pictures from Absence

2009-12-19T22:54:00.004+08:00

My Checklist:

Silat - DONE
Drama Acting - Done
Organise A Camp - Done

Next Pit stop would be my all time childhood dream.
Tarian Zapin
:)

We shall see how it goes.
Insyallah
:)

Long Break Please.

2009-11-30T13:30:00.001+08:00

A thousand of apologies, my reader.

Will be back when i'm done.
:)

the who?

2009-11-14T22:39:00.004+08:00

MR. TOO NICE :

(a) He holds open the door for you, pulls out your chair, and treats you like a queen

(b) He always asks you out with reasonable notice and picks you up at your door

(c) He will do anything for you, literally.

(d) He’s extremely attentive, catering to your every need and desire

(e) He won’t stay a nice guy forever; if he gets hurt by a man-eater, he’ll resort to becoming Mr Bad Guy

credits to Wano, she got it from tumblr for me.

& to think of it.
I kinda feel glad yannow. Because i'm just a Mr. Nice Guy instead of Mr. Too Nice.
Because some parts of the details up there doesn't applies to me.
:)

Buzzzz~

2009-11-13T17:26:00.002+08:00

Busy as a bumblebee.
Oh no, i'm not going from "flower" to "flower".
I'm just busy with my schedule.
Part of me loves it. Being able to mix around with lots people.
But another part of me hates it as well.
I hate having to turn down offers. Especially from the love ones.
I'll get this problem fixed.
I'm on a hiatus people.
Just be patient.
:)

Unlike before

2009-10-28T10:55:00.006+08:00

Finally i have some time to blog, phew :)
so where was i?

Muzikaraya was a Blast!
Pak Eh was enjoying every second on and off stage!
Each & everyone of us definitely did have one hell of a night!
Drama Theatre, acting live in front of hundreds of people.
Way much challenging, having to interact with the audience.
To make them feel how you feel.
The Anger. Sadness. & especially the Laughter.
Almost all the cast were first-timers.
But we managed to pull it through!
I'm so proud of everyone!
Definitely, one of the best memories i had so far in Poly life :)
^Those days when we trained really hard.

^ Hours before the show

^ My Gerek personal Make-up artist.
Dirt Bike Dude.

^ My favorite motivator.
Always with her, " You okay or not Syarif?"
Arrrrrr
xD

^ Now that's why i call a last minute script re-cap.

^ & that's what i do to destress at the back stage!

^ Syarif as Pak Eh

^Sang Singa Purba a.k.a SSP

However, on a personal note.
I went back home reflecting on my performance all night.
It feels really good to get lots of compliments from those who watched me.
From family, friends, veterans actors.
Muzikaraya was also a platform for me to determine where i stand.
Oh boy, i must admit that i have lots of things to learn from.
Improve myself, to reach a way much higher standard.
Somewhere people expect me to be some day.
That's my goal.
:)

Now school is back for me!
Kinda weird though starting 1 week later than the rest.
Missing those days during the holidays.
Spending time practicing from 10am till 10pm every single day.
Wonderful experience. Fantastic bunch of people.
Now that's what i call expanding my Network larger.
I'm loving it!

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I love random stuffs.
Who doesn't?
My random meet-up with my dear Turhana yesterday was really great right?!
Head up to Clarke Quay after school to meet her after her work.
The long chit-chats and catching up.
Oh boy, we do have lots of stories to share didn't we?
Now that's the reason why i never get bored with my Hana.
She's the one i know who's matured enough to share opinions n stuff.
My decade friend. One of the longest friend i have up till now.
From the kindergarten us, to the all-grown up young adult.

An extract from her blogpost:-

Its good that we're still holding a bond together ever since back in Kindergarten, thas like a decade ago! :) All grown up eh? And that we're able to share secrets and our life experience without being so shy and awkward.

I shall find another day to make myself free for another meet-up yeah?
No worries!

That's for now readers
:)

Should i?

2009-10-19T01:41:00.008+08:00

If I can't understand what's going on with myself.
If I don't even realised who I've been all these while.
If I'm always in doubt about why people are acting that way.
I can't expect someone else to understand instead.

That is if you ask me.

I'm the kind of person who really cares about how others would think about me.
First Impression.
Understanding my Character & Personality.
How people see me, is the same as how i see myself in the mirror sometimes.
But most of the time, it's more of how i portray myself to the society.
Insecure you may say.

That is if you ask me.

But if you ask me what's going on with you when you don't even understand it yourself.
How can it be easy for me to explain it to you?

You have loads of friends out there.
Hiding almost every single thing from you.
Because they don't wish to hurt you, obviously.
That i know. But do you even realised that?
& to some of them, they did their part way before.
But it all comes back to you.
It's you who make choices for yourself.
Not them.
Not me.

But if you still ask me.
I'll pick up a whole lot of courage along with me.
Step up and say all the things you want to know.
On their behalf as well.
But to think again, just who am i to you?
Then & Now.
What position am i standing at?
Because one way or another, you would see it in a different way.
Jealousy, mainly.
Am i the right person to do everyone a favor?
No one can understand my position except for myself.
Same goes to you.

It all comes back to you.
Do you still want me to answer you?
Yes, i can.
Even if it's another painful step for me.
It's Okay.
I'll be fine, hopefully.

This is for you.
But bare in mind even the entire world can read this.
Even him.
I'll be waiting for a reply.
Afterall, both of us still owe each other a whole lot of explanation.
Up till now.

Rewind & Play

2009-10-17T22:40:00.005+08:00

Greeting Readers!
It has been really hectic for me during this Semester holiday for me.
Really busy, packed schedule like i've mentioned before.
& its all about the Priceless experience, Fabulous Fun & Wonderful people.
I've told you i've got a bloody tight schedule right?

Where shall i start?
Each & every single event was something that i was really looking forward to.
& i'm greatfully glad that i enjoyed every single moment of it!

1. Ramadan Youth Challenge Camp, widening my knowledge and network of friends.

2. Night Of Power at Masjid Sultan was truly an eye opener for me.

3. My 17th Birthday with a brand new handphone i bought for myself.
Plus the Birthday Presents & Celebration i got.

4. The Uncountable Numbers of Iftars with different bunch of Wonderful People.

5. The Hari Raya Aidilfitri itself! My Pinky Hari Raya :)

6. The Hari Raya Outings with different bunch of colourful friends. Pictures all over!

7. Working for Four Season Hotel as a Waiter, serving big shots like Mr. President, The F1 drivers & some ministers at the Istana. Being a bartender, working with international bartenders for big events like the opening ceremony for Dior & Giorgio Armani at Ion Orchard & the Ferrari Launch. The Italian Models at super Tall & Gorgeous! with sexy legs of course. Heehee xD

8. MEL Camp Trip to Penang & Phuket with Maritime students from Holland, Korea & Japan. Superstar Virgo Cruise. The Party onboard. Shopping Spree. Thai Ladyboys. Beautiful Beach. Nothing else to elaborate, i'm sure you can't imagine how much FUN i had throughout the 4 days.

9. ICE Camp. The Biggest Camp in SP involving SPSU & all the School Clubs. 100 Campers. I wasn't the camper but i was the Night Events I/C. Main Highlights for my 2 nights? The Nightwalk(which was rated 8/10 by campers) & the Bapok Night Cum Party till 5am. 80% of the Campers thought that i was a year 3 or a Graduate. Really showed how professional i carried out my task despite being a year 1 only.

10. Mr & Miss Singapore Poly Photo shoot at Botanics. Was only the 2nd time in my life i've been there. Oh no, i'm not the contestant. I'm in the Organising Commitee. The event would be at the end of this November.

11. The Night Cycling organised by SP Silat & SPMLS Nurdeen. It was last night. Cycling from the school Campus to VivoCity, then to Kalland Leisure Park & finally end it at East Coast Park. From Midnight till 5am, it was a great 1st-time experience.

Last But not least the most important thing of all.
The reason why i come to sch almost every day from 10am to 10pm.
Sang Singa Purba's Muzikaraya Production which is next Friday,23rd Oct.
The biggest event of my life, an opportunity for me to prove to my family & friends.
Something that i'm really interested in.
A potential talent, according to my seniors.
It's my time to shine.

More details about it? Check this out.
http://www.sangsingapurba.com
http://www.facebook.com/event.php?eid=171305616334

I might have missed out some of the things i had somehow. Like all those random meet-ups & stuff at the very last minute. Im proud that i managed to handle the busy schedule. Although some of my friends felt that the schedule was like digging my own grave. Yes, it is really tiring and i am totally shagged. But it's not over yet!

& of course, there's so many other things that i had no choice but to turn them down.
Friends even had to schedule an appointment with me a week beforehand just to ensure i could fit it into my existing schedule. Some of them even had birthday surprises planned for me but it didn't happened all because of my busy schedule. It's really not nice replying to every single of them saying that i can't make it. & i'm really sorry for all that guys.
I'll try to make it up soon when i'm free.
:)
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sometimes, even a song reminds us of the past.
a song that USED TO mean alot to us.
but when sometimes that song suddenly tunes up in ur shuffled playlist.
we wished that song never exist.
& now, its on repeat again.
it's just a song.
perhaps.

No Doubt!

2009-10-11T01:31:00.005+08:00

(Gerek = Happening)

It was GREAT!

I've been gone for a week.

But when i came back, i still see all those nonsense stuff on my tagboard.

From the SAME OLD PEOPLE again.

(IP Address tells it all)

Well it's really up to you yannow.

You bloody faggots are way gone together with my past.

I don't give a heck to a bunch of you at all.

Just a bunch of Toxic Friends I've had in the past.

You can still think that i'm the "Step Gerek" kinda person or whatsoever.

BUT GUESS WHAT?!

I AM A GEREK PERSON BECAUSE I DESERVED TO!

BECAUSE I HAVE A BIG WHOLE LOAD OF GEREK PEOPLE AROUND ME ALL THE TIME!

I AM ENJOYING MY GEREK LIFE WITHOUT YOU FAGGOTS.

WHY DO I EVEN CARE?

I TOTALLY DON'T!

Are you having a Great life as me? I hope you do!

If not, GET A LIFE!

Do what ever childish things you want to do on my tagboard until you get bored.

& the bottom line is, i still enjoy my Gerek Life with my Gerek Friends in my Gerek World.

Right Dudes & Babes? :D

Still not satisfied?

Just take a look at these photos of mine taken from this week that i've been gone.

Just look at how happy that lucky guy is in that picture.

No Doubt, that guy in that pictures, is enjoying EVERY SINGLE OF IT.

Well there's more to come yannow & people still keep tagging pics on my FB.

To my Gerek Readers, stay tuned for more pictures and a proper post of my wonderful week.

Kudos!

wassup?

2009-10-01T01:35:00.006+08:00

^ Earle Swensen

^ Rock Chiq

^ FZL Dude

2009-09-29T02:25:00.002+08:00

the problem is...

2009-09-24T23:17:00.007+08:00

^THEY, are the ones that make me smile and
left me with tears of Joy on my festive days.
Lotsa Love my sisters.
:)

I wonder WHY.
I still wonder why...

I am being myself, the Syarif i know.
All sorts of effort being put in.
With full sincerity from the bottom of my heart.
In order to Impress.
In order to Gain trust.
In order to Prove who i am.
In order to Win the hearts.
Of any particular person.

But the fact that i've always fail to achieve it.
Instead, it's the community/people around that particular person.
I'm trying my best to earn your trust.
But I never managed to get that.
But to the whole lot of others, i'm good enough that someone like you could ever ask for.
Why can many of them see that, BUT NOT YOU?
What issit about me that you are not convinced yet?
What?
Why?

Oh God, why is it so difficult for this particular person to see it?
Instead, it's the others that are way much convinced.
They are the ones whom i never expect to understand me, did.
But you, whom i've been hoping for, never could.

What's even worst?
There's more than just ONE particular person i'm facing now.
Situations are simply the same again & again.
The ones i expect much never did.
But the others around me are the ones with positive response.
Should i feel way much relieved?
Knowing that the world understands and agrees with me,
but still not those whom i've expected to.

Save Me From Myself.
As a Son to a Mother.
As a Son to a Father.
As a Grandson to a Grandmother.
As a Brother to the Elder one.
As a Nephew to an Uncle.
As a Friend to a Friend.
As a Humble Boy to a Precious Girl, like you.
As Syarif.

We ask God for a Sunny day, but He gives us Thunder & Rain instead.
We ask "Why? Why God?"
Every thing has it's reason.
God has a reason.
He wants us to see the Rainbow that's awaiting for us after the Rain.
Because He knows that the Rainbow is way much better than the Sun.

My Rainbow, is still waiting for me.
Hold on, Rainbow.
I'm coming, I promise.

My Pinky Raya

2009-09-21T11:47:00.007+08:00

My choice of colour for this year's Raya.

:)

2nd Day:-

:)

Goodbye Busy Ramadhan.

2009-09-19T02:18:00.006+08:00

^That is how it looks like.

The Terawih place under my granny's flat.

I simply love spending my night there mixing with the Grandfathers.

They give me advices that really make me ponder deep throughout the night.

^ My Lovelies. My Bestfriends.

I never get bored with them.

Neither does the boys get bored with "Syu" on Shad's tv screen that night.

yannow2 hahaha xD

^ This year is the first time that i managed to break fast at a number different Mosques in Singapore.

For the sake of the experience. The atmosphere.

The times spent with friends.

Wonderful.

^ & she made me get addicted to Bubbletea.

Ms. Flower was simply too shy to pose at the KOI Bubbletea store.

Thanks for the "Birthday" treat.

^ the fact that i'm too busy with my schedule.

I simply miss my own normal life.

I just turned 17.

A year older would mean a better Syarif.

A much more matured young man.

Patience is still my choice.

Smile has always been my key.

& i thank everyone for their wishes & prayers for me.

I never knew an average guy like me means alot to all of you.

& that i am glad that at least, i'm "Somebody" in your hearts

Ramadhan was everything to me.

It's like a huge wall that stands right in the middle of my path.

The wrong path that was leading me to all the bullshits that awaits me in the future.

I was running straight when i suddenly went "Smack" being knocked down by the wall.

Friends around me was trying all their best.

But it was now that i finally realised it on my own.

How Pathetic Syarif was.

How stupid Syarif was.

How naive Syarif was.

& How Cruel Syarif was towards himself.

For being TOO nice to someone else, but not himself.

Now, as i tend to have a glance of "those things" around me.

The feeling of disappointment and despair has slowly been overcomed by anger.

Angry towards myself.

What the heck was Syarif doing all these while, without realising everything way much earlier.

When EVERYONE thought that Syarif was doing VERY WELL.

When Syarif was FOREVER left with question marks.

& that suddenly he was pushed off from a helicopter without a parachute with him.

but still hoping that he could grow a pair of wings in mid-air before he reaches the ground.

How pathetic Syarif was.

^ If it's fake.

That's the reason why it's hard for me to smile this days.

& then people would concernly approach and ask,

" What's wrong Syarif? Are you Okay?"

As that clearly shows how jovial i've always been before this.

"Syarif, the guy with a smile."

So let's just say,

" To hell with the past. Today is always a busy day for me. & tomorrow is Hari Raya"

Happy Hari Raya Aidilfitri Everyone.

Forgive me for my wrong doings.

Enjoy Yourselves.

Super Shagged.

2009-09-10T02:21:00.001+08:00

& Guess what?
It's just 1 week of my Busy Schedule.
haiyerr~

Does dreamers really sleep?

2009-09-04T05:40:00.002+08:00

Another wierd dream of mine.

2 burglars. 1 big mansion.

Broke in, searching for each & every precious thing in the house.

& then we woke the big cats( tigers & lions) that were guarding the mansion by accident.

Spent quite some time playing "catching" with these "cats".

Eventually, these "cats" chased us around with 2 feet instead of 4!

So Cartoon seh! xD

In the end, we got away and managed to steal back home

the most valuable thing we THOUGHT.

Ice Cubes from the huge fridge!

Yeah, imagine Ice Cubes stuffed in those burglars' water proof sacks -_-"

& guess what's the best part of all?!

I had the BEST/Weirdest Partner in crime with me..

^Yerp. Mr. Rosyam Nor.

That's the other Burglar.

We must have been the most action-packed burglars of all time.

hahahahahahaha!

& i woke up laughing at myself for having such an INTERESTING WEIRD DREAM EVER!

I think if i write the story down, & send it to Steven Spielberg.

It could end up becoming a blockbuster & earn millions of money!

& Rosyam Nor & i would be nominated for

Best Actor & Best Supporting Actor Awards in Pesta Perdana 2010.

Don't you think so reader?

"Holiday" Stress

2009-09-02T23:58:00.004+08:00

Midnight passed.

I'm still awake.

So are you. Many of you!

& it means that all of us are lonely people.

-_-"

Looking at my holiday schedule again & again.

It's Crazy, some say. & i think It's called Suicidal somehow.

PPCDL Course. SPSU's ICE Camp. SPSU's Mr & Miss SP. Iftars(i don't know how many already).

Ramadhan Youth Camp. Sang Singa Purba's Muzikaraya & Malay Dances. Part-time work.

MEL Camp. SMA Outings. & knowing that there's MORE adding up last minutes now.

This is MY Semester Holiday.

& i choose to feel Happy about it.

Eventhough the tight schedule is gonna be a continuous exhaustion for me.

Let's just look at it this way;

" It's better than i rot at home with Mr. Boredom "

& for the sake of this particular pair of eyes.

* no touching please xD *

I shall put this up.

But it's edited on purpose.

That's how i've been spending my late afternoon at home so far.

Push-ups. 2 Dumbbell.

I exert myself until it's time for Break-fast.

Partly because i have made deal with Faizal; "look hot on Star Virgo"

" Hello Mr. Holiday ;) "

an Eraser required

2009-09-02T00:06:00.006+08:00

I'll still be counting on that very second.

Getting back what's mine that was left astray.

Leaving back what was meant to be, way long ago.

& hope it's gone forever.

Hopes everything's gone.

I meant, EVERYTHING.

& at that point of time, when i've got my self assurance.

I'll be there, dancing my way through under those neon lights.

My Busy Schedule is here.

DURING my holidays.

Extacy. Subutex. Ice. Whatever you call it.

2009-09-01T00:26:00.003+08:00

My Favourite bunch of friends

are my Drugs.

Because they never fail to bring the smile on my face.

Morning Scare

2009-08-29T09:24:00.006+08:00

It started good.

But it suddenly end up in a terrible horror.

& got me out of my sleep immediately in a huge shock.
Scared. Worriment.
What the heck was it supposed to mean?
I couldnt think of anything else but the 1st thing i did right after was sms-ed her.
"Are you Okay?"

I wished i could stay asleep a lil longer to save that nightmare & turn it into a good dream back.
But like she said,
" It's just a dream, don't worry too much old man "

Big Baby Had a Dream

2009-08-28T00:58:00.003+08:00

^I was tired & sleepy.

So i head to bed.

Lying on my bed, after a few prayers.

The last thing i told myself before i knocked off was,

" I want to forget about you please "

^& as usual, i would have drooled for sure.

Just like my mom, she's drools too.

It's in the blood you see.

Poor thing for the comfy pillow.

^However, i had a dream.

A very unexpecting dream.

I dreamt of you.

A dream of a scenario that this timid heart was hoping for.

Something nice.

Too nice that would left me in tears of joy.

Smiling & crying in my dreams.

Even when i'm sleeping.

*Alarm Rings*

& there i was lying motionlessly on my side, with the dream all fresh in my head.

I looked like that, somewhat.

& surprisingly, my face was literally wet with my own tears.

I looked up the ceiling and asked myself.

Why?

" Why this dream? "

& then i said,

" How i wished this dream could come true in reality... "

" But still, it's JUST A DREAM Syarif. "

Does your dream happens & comes true readers?

);

"FOM Exam" Day.

2009-08-27T00:16:00.004+08:00

Tiring day enjoying myself all day.
Freight Link Express Trip.
Bowling.
Movie.
Shopping.
Pool.
Break Fast at Masjid Al-Falah.
& Dinner with Turhana :)

I know i've told myself before that i would never buy anything from Topman
because the design are simply so nonsense, plus it's a badly contaminated Matrep Brand.
But i just bought 2 long sleeve tops(that pic up there), a grey and a black one.
Simple enough for me to wear to school in a cold weather.
teehee :)

& oh boy, i was definitely happy to finally to meet my dear friend.
The sensible chats we had. Your advices & opinions.
I shall keep that in mind.
& then the "yapping" part.
I enjoyed it though cos it's really fun having a young nyonya who goes on & on
from one store to another till we covered the entire mall.
*that Espirit saleslady was giggling all they because you WERE really behaving like its your store!*
all i could say to her was, " I can never understand about Girls! "
* & the lady laughed nonstop *
LOL xD

You really made my day, dear friend.
Thank you very much!
& yes, your ben&Jerry after ramadhan aite Hana.
;D
(pics uploaded on FB)

^ that's how i'll end up now.
^.^

EL-OH-EL

2009-08-25T22:02:00.000+08:00

Was watching random funny videos when i got back from Terawih.
But this one really made me laughing like a crazy old man!
He has this Indonesian-look but the phillipine accent is so the funny!

Enjoy xD

Bangla Business

2009-08-25T18:49:00.000+08:00

Another dreadful boring day for me but it took one particular article
i've read from Sis Yuniza's Blog that really made me realise about the reality here in Singapore.
I must agree with her opinions as well.
Thanks for sharing Sis.

"I just saw a heartbreaking, short documentary on Bangladeshi workers in Singapore. Makes me look at them at a different light. I've always been kinda wary of them when they're around or feel a bit disgusted when I see so many of them over here in Singapore. But after watching this, damn, do I feel like a horrible piece of shit. They've been conned into coming here. And here I am, being bratty about them trying to make a decent living. Shame on me :(

Please do watch the video. It's really something:

Dead's Man Chest

2009-08-24T23:56:00.004+08:00

I'm becoming Heartless by the days.
& I don't know why.

Bitchy Blogspot

2009-08-24T23:07:00.003+08:00

Apart from having a HUGE problem with this Blogger.

Blogger is being such a pain in the butt!

I would have spent my entire day making one very long post.
I've got tons to share.
I've got a whole load of pictures to show.

But having problems handling with Blogger kinda spoils my mood.
So i managed to change my blogskin!
I really like this one.
But i've yet to upload some profile pics here n there.
It's okay, a lil more patience will do.
Today is just the 1st day of my holiday anyway.
& i still have 55days of holiday left.
Nevertheless, i have a very PACKED Schedule ahead of me.

All i can say for now is,

Miss Universe 2009 made up my day from the start.
But i'm kinda heartbroken cos Miss Australia didn't win.
Why everytime Venezuela, or maybe some latin countries would win.
Donald Trump biased i think.
Lol xD

& here's my Yummeh Toplist:-

Austrtralia(She's my No. 1, i don't care):

^ See lah! She looks even Gorgeous with light make-up!

Indonesia(She looks like Bunga Citra Lestari, nice) :

Vietnam(The Asian Hottie) :

Sweden(Decent Looking Girl-Next-Door) :

Switzerland(The most Seductive-looking/Naughty Girl,looks like Rihanna to me) :

Nicaragua(My type of Latin babe, a lil bit like V.Hudgens) :

Kosovo(Fierce,& i dont why i have fetishes with those small-squinting-sleepy eyes) :

& to think of it again, WHAT A TOPIC TO SHARE IN THE MONTH OF RAMADHAN!
-_-"
LOL

But nevermind, i make sure every night i dont miss Terawih Prayers.
Should be okay. Nyeahahaha! xD
Toodles~
;)

Wahai Manusia...

2009-08-24T00:46:00.003+08:00

Puasa Tau!!!
hahahha xD

Psst!

2009-08-11T20:54:00.001+08:00

Let me get over all these School workloads first for now.

Then i'll post up a proper update yeah?
2 Projects due tomorrow.
I'm a living dead man now.
Get it?
xD

Popeye Without His Spinach.

2009-08-06T13:27:00.002+08:00

Mom said that i'm a good boy.
Mom said that i'm a strong boy.

I'm not Good enough, Mom.
& i don't think i'm strong enough to keep holding on.

Shower me some strength Mom.
I need it, badly.

Too Young To Be Old.

2009-08-04T23:11:00.000+08:00

The moon shines bright above me as i looked out of the window.
The cool breeze blew the sweat on my forehead.
Nevertheless, i felt that each night only got darker for me.

I finally visit the doctor today.
I couldn't bare the pain this morning.
I had so much things in my mind last night.
MC for the day.

Consulted the doctor. Had my X-ray. Got the results.
It wasn't good news from the doctor, as expected.
Neither could he assure me that it's gonna get any better.

I beg for your prayers friends.
Pray for my health please.
Your prayers would mean alot to me.

I want the "Sporty & Fit" Syarif back.
Without having to feel all this pain again.
& pretend that everything's fine.
I'm too young for this.

Please God.

Uncle's

2009-08-03T23:53:00.008+08:00

Oh My Monday
I knew i was never prepared for my Monday.

I was there holding back each & every tears as long as i could.
Until i couldn't do it anymore in the end, you knew.
( told you, you were gonna get me infected )
& i replaced them with the best smile i could ever gave you
that moment.
For i knew i couldn't lie to myself this time. I couldn't pretend it's fine.
It was too much for me to bare.
I have to accept the truth.
Even when the truth was tearing me apart.

In return, i simply couldn't just leave you there in tears.
I couldn't just leave you with no words and blame you for everything.
That would have made things even worse for you.
That's not what i want.
I've listened to everything that i didn't expected to know.
& in return, i've said everything that i wanted you to know.
I hope you remember all those things that i've told you.
Because i really mean it, honestly.

People say,
When you love someone so much, you let her go.
If she comes back, she's the one.
I'll leave all that in God's hand.

& u might be wondering how am i doing now?
How have i been coping with things now.
I'll be fine.
& you know i'll always be there if you need me.
Forever Friends we will always be.
:)

Make sure u keep that very last promise i told you.
No more _________ for all the things that has happened.
Because you have millions more reason to smile than i do.
I pray & wish you all the very best with him.
& make sure u keep smiling, because you have him.
Smile Auntie, Smile
:)

Please.

2009-08-01T01:17:00.000+08:00

Please promise me.

Opinions.

2009-08-01T00:13:00.002+08:00

A friend once said that i'm the kind of person who always
put someone's else feeling before mine too much
when it comes to something that i really hoped for from that person.

Another friend said that perhaps i'm being to sweet and soft instead of
being a lil more aggressive and persistent.
Too much being around in the "safe zone".

To the extent that i would eventually sacrifise my own feelings,
just to make sure that someone doesn't get disappointed.
& eventually i give in, and end up suffering myself for not getting it.
They said, i should be a lil more fair towards my own self rather.

I like having these few close friends who really understands me.
& most importantly giving me honest perceptions of me.
That sometimes made me realise and reflect on myself.
A part of it, motivation. Something that i really need.

I say,
I'll have to admit that i'm a lil weak emotionally when it comes to this.
The things i do all these while, are simply just me.
I can't be someone else.
Like i've said, i don't wish to push things too hard on you.
Because it'll simply gonna make things even worse for you.
Isn't it true?
(& there i go, putting myself after you)

Stop being sorry for me please.
What's done is the past, remember?
Takecare of yourself.
:)

Food is my Lust.

2009-07-30T15:38:00.002+08:00

I've lost 7kilos in ONE week.

64kg dropped till 57kg.
I've been losing my appetite lately.

Tonight is my Silat team's celebration after the 4th IG.
There is gonna be a FOOD FEAST for sure.
I shall gain back my 7kilos by tonight.
Yes i will.
Because i havent had a proper meal since morning.

I want my appetite back.
Because FOOD is a HUGE part of my life.
Tonight, we dine like there's no tomorrow.
Ok friends?
:D

Hanging By A Rope

2009-07-29T09:53:00.003+08:00

Poly 50 run.
I'll force myself.
I have no choice.
Disappearing at the very last minute is just not me.
Especially when there's no replacement for me.
I have to put the team's spirit as a priority.
Then comes my health.
I should have been at home with an MC since Monday.
But i didn't took it.
Mr. Backache, run with me please.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

I have my weaknesses.
He has his strength.
Tell me something i don't know.
Rather than you leave me here with no answer.

How Could I?

2009-07-28T11:14:00.005+08:00

What's up with my Monday?
Definitely one of the most terrible Monday i ever had.
The weekends was all packed and busy for me.
Shagged. Aches all over my body. I forced myself to school.
The backache is forever stabbing me from the back.
The heavy head. Torturous.
Monday was supposed to be a much more longer day.
But i gave up, i decided to head home right after lesson.
So there was i, in the train heading back Eunos Mrt.

& what was there to add up to all the miseries i've been through for the day you ask?
Never in my life did i totally forgot about it.
One of the most important dates in my life.
I totally forgotten about it.
I felt so selfish.
All i had in mind was all about myself.
I want my rest, blah3.

I got back really late on Sunday, Mum was asleep.
I left school in the morning, she was having her nap.
I did called mum to ask how she was doing at home when i was still at school.
I didn't really had any ample time spent with her during the weekends.
I missed her. She was fine, she said.

Few minutes later when i was half-way through in the train, mum called again.
"Are you still at school or are you already heading back Granny's
place? You're sick right, don't stay at school too late okay." she asked.
" I'm already heading home. I really need my rest." i replied.
" Did you remember that it's my Birthday today?" she asked.

Jaw dropped. My heart shattered. I really couldn't hide my feelings.
I dropped off & took the opposite train back Woodlands instead.
I couldn't care less of the people looking at me in the train.
I couldn't hold back any of my tears.

I was in a state of terrible shock.
I didn't want to let go of my hug.
Her shoulder was soaked with my tears.
"It's okay. My children is the best gift i ever wished for.
I'm really glad you came by"
I really didn't wished to make her cry on her special day.
I felt terribly bad.

Siblings and i brought mum for dinner.
That's the least we could do for her.
That short period of time spent meant alot to us.

I am really sorry mum.
& i love you so much

Something Big Was In Fact Very Small.

2009-07-27T14:20:00.007+08:00

Mission Accomplished.
The long wait has ended.
Quarter-Finals. Semi-Finals. & the Final Match.
I fought it through with the undying supports from the people around me.
& i was there at the highest platform of the podium.

The final match was really tough for me.
I was indeed hoping for certain people to be there supporting.
My favourite people.
But they weren't there.
Only Dad & Sis made it to my match.
& how does it feels like being all sucky, hours before the match.
Especially when i was all set waiting to be called next,
i was still thinking and hoping for their presence.
It didn't happened.
& they only thing i prayed for was to get all those thoughts out of my head.
I needed to focus in my game.
& the only thing i could do is smile. Even when i stepped into the ring.
"Why should i care about them? It's my game. Perhaps, some of them don't give a heck about me now even."
Those things kept popping out it my mind, but i kept telling myself that they weren't true.
My phone beeps continuously but they were wishes from random and unexpecting people.
The ones that i was hoping for never did.

*Gedebak! Gedebush! Gedebang*
(Fighting in the ring)

After the match, i asked dad how did i do.
He said, " You are still having your backache right? All i saw was you fighting with ur own pain rather. "
Yes, dad was right.
Dad wants me to have a long break for months in order to recover from my backache.
He's really worried that it's gonna be a permanent injury.
& i'll visit the doctor for an x-ray soon if i really can't take it anymore.

On a brighter note, i finally did it.
I ended everything wonderfully for the team.
For everyone who was there cheering for me all the way.
I'm really glad that i didn't disappoint them.

All of a sudden, the huge victory i was waiting for 2 years
FELT LIKE NOTHING somehow.
I don't know why.

Fishball is Bebola Ikan

2009-07-24T14:58:00.007+08:00

Soft. Spongy. Fragile.

But still, many people love it.
That's how i shall describe my life currently.

( i know, no link right? I simply don't know how to start my post. Lol xD)

There are simply so many things that's happening around me.
Things that make me feel so high up there.
Enjoying every second of it.
& Things that i definitely hate to even think about it.
Unfortunate things.
That's a normal life isn't it?
Just follow the flow of life.

Sometimes i wonder what does it mean being Independent.
How would you describe An Independent Man?
Able to uphold his responsibilities on his own?
Am i that kind of person?

& then it's the part where i have to make Decisions.
Making decision is very crutial in everything that we do.
Especially those tough ones.
& that's also the part where many of us don't feel like making decision.
Instead, we run away from them.
Does that make us an irresponsible person?
Sometimes making an important decision takes a lot of time for me.
I have to observe.
I have to reconsider alot of things around me.
"What if..." is the usual question that pops up in mind.

There are a million things that i wanna say.
Expressing out my feelings.
Confessions.
But i've always put in a second thought to it.
Before it might hurt others.
Before it changes every single impression of yours towards me.
Before every single thing that i hoped for vanished in seconds.

Risk is the word.
I don't know what she has in her mind.
I don't know what he has in his mind.
I don't know what they have in their minds.
& we all don't know what we all have in our minds.
Only God Knows.

& that is why i think it's a huge responsibility for me to
make a very wise decision.
It's a matter of Time.
:)
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~On a second note, my finals in confirmed to be this Sunday.
& i have mixed emotions to it.
Nervous. Anxious. Scared. Proud. Worried. Happy.
I'm really glad that i've finally reached the Finals.
Not that i've been going through tough stages before this.
But at least i'm a step further from the previous competition.
I was just told that i'll be the last one in team who will be fighting.
The other 3 kids are having their finals tomorrow.

My backache is the biggest obstacle that i'm facing all the while.
It has been killing me for a month plus.
Is not getting any better. It's getting worse instead.
Now that's the HUGE pain that i've got to bare with.

Last man standing.
Some say i've been more like a strong backbone to the team.
That has surely put alot more pressure on me.
I'll put in my very best to end the team's war during my last battle.
We shall end it all with a glorious finish.
Insya'Allah.
Pray for my victory and health people.
Thank you~
:)

Save Me From Myself, Please.

2009-07-22T21:39:00.002+08:00

You guys shouldn't worry much about me okay.
& don't ask me how or why.
Because even i don't know what's going on.
Maybe it's just another obstacle that God is trying to test me.
How strong my Patience is.
God definitely has a reason to everything.
I'm staying strong.
Because i have faith in you, God.
Because you are the only One i trust.

poots!

2009-07-16T00:00:00.001+08:00

C. Daughtry's attempt on Poker face.

Puffy & Red.

2009-07-15T22:51:00.002+08:00

School has been really very bloody slack this week.
I'll take back my words, saying that last week was the slackiest week in poly life so far.
Because i think this week is way much more slackier than ever!
Lessons Cancelled.
Lessons shortened.
No proper lessons taught.
Because all we did was talk crap and chilled in class.
Together with the lecturer.
Yes, school IS gerek this week.
xD

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That feeling.
That little feeling that's starting to grow.
Growing larger and fonder.
I like that feeling.
I love it.
& I hope everything that's happening is real.
I hope it gets better.

We've got nothing to rush for.
Do we?
We'll take things slow and enjoy every moment we have alright?
We shall smile along together.
;)

Meanwhile, you better get well soon okay.
Puffy Eyes + Red Nose = Hotter than Megan Fox?
& i know you've been reading all my rants here all this while.
I'm fine with it
:)

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Flashbacks :)

2009-07-15T09:32:00.003+08:00

Pictures Grabbed for my Friendster account since its dead already:

^The Kid in Me

^Those times when we were active playing street soccer right after school.

^Having fun as usual.

^As i grew up, i started having interest with climbing around and making a fool of myself.

^ Hari Raya was never a boring one for me.

^ & then the soft side of me started to grow.

^ & i enjoyed entertaining people around me. Just to see them smile.

^Is that how i'm gonna look like when i grow old?...

However, one thing for sure. The 2 most prominent aspects of my life that has never changed since i was small were...
^Eat like there's no tomorrow...

^ & sleep while you can..

Flashbacks make me smile...
:)

Questions.

2009-07-13T20:51:00.004+08:00

Sometimes i wonder, why?

Sometimes i asked myself, how is it now?
Sometimes i thinking again & again, what am i supposed to do?
It's all about having lots of doubts.
Uncertainty.
Worriment.

The close ones may say all those encouraging words.
Their assurance that could make me feel comfortable and confident.
To them i did my part well enough.

However, i still don't feel so.
Something simply doesn't feel right.
I'm not gonna push things hard.
Neither can i sit back and do nothing.

I'll just let myself hanging.
Keep holding on...
As you said.

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I am through to the Finals.
But i'm really disappointed with my performance during the semi-finals.
So nothing to be happy about too much.
Until i get to stand on the highest step of that podium.
Last lap.

Blueberry Cheesecake.

2009-07-10T23:55:00.004+08:00

Nothing is perfect for sure.
& i've learnt to be more realistic in life.
I can't expect everything to go just as how i hoped for.
Despite of the down part of life, i shall never stop praying to God.
Pray for the best to happen tomorrow hopefully.
& when it does, be thankful.

I really don't wish to make everything difficult for you.
I'm putting aside my feelings and selfishness.
& allow myself to at least understand your position.
It's you that i'm more concerned. I know it ain't easy.
& I don't wish to make it even worse for you, due to my presence.
I am not giving up. Neither am i complaining.
I am negotiating with myself rather.
For your smile.
For you~
:)

The last minute plannings and efforts together with a bunch of new friends.
Her Friends, rather.
It turned out just the way we all wished for.
Putting aside all the negative part that i had to go through.
Every effort was really worth it.
Because in the end, we all get to see that smile on her face.
:)

& then it's back to reality again.
Semi Finals this Sunday.
A part of me have a feeling that it ain't going to be an easy one.
The other part keeps reminding me how deep it means to me.
To everyone that's supporting around me.
I won't let it end here just like that.
I want that Gold Medal.

*rock on brother!*

"Personal" Project & Presentation.

2009-07-09T10:58:00.004+08:00

Done.
Wonderfully Done.

Worth every effort that i've put in.
I really hope you like it.
Specially-made Gift.
;)

Butterflies. Stars. Roses.
It glows in the dark to keep you accompanied at night.

You were speechless.
You don't have to say anything.
Just smile.
The smile that makes me speechless instead.

And yes, keep smiling.
Because i'm smiling too.
:)

But This Part Remains.

2009-07-08T02:48:00.000+08:00

Music: Smile
Artist: Michael Jackson

Smile though your heart is aching
Smile even though its breaking
When there are clouds in the sky, you'll get by
If you smile with your fear and sorrow
Smile and maybe tomorrow
You'll find that life is still worthwhile

If you just
Light up your face with gladness
Hide every trace of sadness
Although a tear may be ever so near
That's the time you must keep on trying
Smile, what's the use of crying?
You'll find that life is still worthwhile

If you just
Smile though your heart is aching
Smile even though its breaking
When there are clouds in the sky, you'll get by
If you smile through your fear and sorrow
Smile and maybe tomorrow
You'll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just smile

that's the time you must keep on trying
Smile, what's the use of crying?
You'll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just smile

"A day without a laugh is a wasted day." - Charles Chaplin

Runaway Train.

2009-07-07T23:59:00.002+08:00

No i'm not boarding it.
No matter how long it waits for me at the subway.

Bend But Don't Break.

2009-07-07T14:17:00.003+08:00

Last week was really tough for me.
Shit happens.
You flush it away.
Thanks for the concerns guys.
:)
The Cold, Rainy & Wet Sunday was spent with these 2 dudes & my brother.
Asked them along for the friendly soccer match, playing for GCW Hotel.
Really wasn't easy at all right guys? Plus the bad weather.
But we enjoyed it very much for sure!
:D

1st MST paper i sat for last Monday.
1st result that's out so far.
Good start.
But i got the feeling that this is the only paper i performed well.
xD

I Hate This Part Right Here.

2009-07-03T11:06:00.003+08:00

Now this is the part where i really feel that Home isn't Home anymore.
This is the part where i Hate to come back home.
Having to witness all the Bullshits that's going on in the house.
Having to listen all the Nonsense.
I am the kind of person who just keeps quiet and observe things around me.
& a young adult like me is no longer immature to understand things.
I can't say who's right or wrong.
Because to me every is wrong.
But i just can't voice out.
& i never will.

The only reason i want to come back home is because of My Lovely Sister.
She's going through the phase of life that i just had last year.
She needs my support.
I know she does. Definitely.
& that's the reason why i only miss her the most in the family.

& how i wish i'm at the east side of Singapore.
Feeling all peaceful every morning i wake up.
To be able to see my grandmother's face every morning.
& knowing that life at my second home is way much calm.

But still, where i am right now.
Somewhere i have to call HOME.

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How would you feel if you are typing this post with
your fingers trembling on your keyboard.
& you are crying like a small kid.
With mixed emotions.
Fear. Disappointment. Sorrowness. Anger.

I want my HOME back please.
Please.
;(

Toppings

2009-07-03T00:12:00.002+08:00

& to add up to the miseries i've been going through.
I'm just "glad" Mr. Right Ankle had to sprain.
AGAIN.

Was sms-ing while walking, down a few small step.
& didn't realised there's a small drain.
All of a sudden, I had my leg stuck and my ass down the floor.
The ankle was totally twisted.
2 eyes, a pair of spectacles. Still cannot be careful.
How "blur sotong" was i.
Nice eh?
-.-

Soccer match this Sunday.
Semi finals & Finals(hopefully) on the 12th July.
& this ankle?

So when are you recovering, Mr. Right Ankle?
Tell me.
:(

Uncertainty.

2009-06-30T21:04:00.002+08:00

I'm falling.
But i wont let myself falter back to where i started.

It's like making pancakes for the first time.
The night before, you get yourself busy in the kitchen.
Getting the hands messy with the flour.
Beating eggs.
Mixing the sugar, salt, milk, etc.
When everything's all set,
you get excited for the cooking tomorrow.

As early as it is, you get yourself busy in the kitchen again.
Heating the frying pan.
Get the pancake paste out of the fridge.
A lil more stir will do.
& then, scoop it on that burning pan.
Witness it turning brown. & soon, a lil too cooked.

For almost 2 hours, you've been failing.
Not even 1 decent, edible pancake was done.
Either not fully cooked, or it's all burnt.
Some weren't just as spongy as you wished.
How demoralising could it be.

A huge part of you just felt like giving up.
But that tiny spark in your heart is rather stubborn.
You try, and kept trying. Effortlessly.
Until suddenly, you finally discovered the solution.
The next moment, you've got the hang of it.
& finally, achieved those nice & spongy pancakes that you were hoping for all the while.

How relieved. Delighted. Proud of yourself.
You smile.

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Should i just let the huge part of me take over me?
Hands down. Admit my weaknesses.
Even when i know it's just too early for that.
Too early to give up.

& regret for the rest of my life?
Is that what losers do?

Or should i reignite that tiny lil spark of flame in my heart?
And make everything just the way i was hoping for?
Something worth hoping for....

Is that what you call a winner?

Help me, please.
;(

Red Tulips & White Daisies.

2009-06-28T18:15:00.002+08:00

My 1st. My Wonderful Number 1.

2009-06-26T22:28:00.004+08:00

:)

Let's start off with a smile.
Deep-from-the-heart smile.
A smile with the fresh memories in my mind.
Wonderful Memories.

A scoop of Preparation.
A handful of Planning.
& definitely a few Pinches of Patience.

I really wished i would post up pictures.
Share with you guys each every bit of my happy moments.
What we did. What we shared.
Our Similarities.
The Smile & Laughter.

However, a big part of me has always restrict myself from doing so.
I don't want people to know.
I want it to be really low profile.
But this is a blog.
& i got a big mouth too.

Orange & Lime Green
The Search of Pink Orchid.
Pink Colour Kite Flying.
Specially-made Pancakes.
Strawberries over Chocolates.
Anything but Peanuts.
The Top Score "Gimme-a-Slap" Face.

I'll say,
I really enjoyed my day today.
All the 1st time experience.
Thank You
;)

It Terminates at Parkway Parade.

2009-06-25T00:18:00.003+08:00

They reached at around 7plus.
Headed to East Coast Park for our short night cycling.
Rossi. Pedrosa. Hayden. Stoner.
Those conversations, planning for an overseas trip for us in the future.
Small, yet the simple group of us. With our dreams.

Chilled at my cribs for awhile. Settled down.
1 China man. 1 Javanese Wak. 1 Boyanese Dude. & 1 Malay Rocker.
Exchanging thoughts. Laughter.
Definitely my best dudes.
:D

Pourquoi Maria?

2009-06-23T23:48:00.002+08:00

You're like an Indian Summer in the middle of Winter.

Simply say,
You're Superbly One Georgous Hottie,
That Never Fails To Melt Me.

How wonderful, how sane, how beautifully difficult,
and therefore true.
:)

A Pinch of Patience.

2009-06-23T15:13:00.004+08:00

Second day of the third and final week of my holiday.
I've been putting aside my books and enjoyed ever single day of it.

Silat Competition. Sister Diana's Wedding.
SP Silat Outing. The Melaka Trip.
SMA Ubin Outing. Sentosa Class Outing.
& The Uncountable Random Moments.
Everything was superbly fantastic and things went as planned.

Except today.
We human beings plan our future.
We want to do this, we want to have that.
However, everything that we planned will not happen without God's will.
God surely has a reason why we could not carry on with our plans today.
Its okay. All i can do is smile to myself and say,
"There's always tommorrow.."
;)

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Pictures. Photography.
The all time Number 1 form of way to remind us about the beautiful memories we had in the past. We take pictures of our faces smiling from ear to ear. Posing at some places that we seldom go to or have never been to before.
And when we look back at those pictures some day, we smile along.
:)

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As a teenager. We mix around with different kinds of people.
We make lots of friends.
However, there are definitely a few of them who are very close to us. Those who were there to laugh along with you when you do the wackiest things in life. Such as eating the Wasabiko Sushi with lots of Wasabi added on.
:D

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As we grow old. We tend to resemble like our older ones. The younger brother has grown up. & still growing. Now he looks like his older brother. Only with a darker skin tone.
It's in the blood.

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Insurance

A new friend told me that when you love someone, you love them at a rate of 97%. When asked what's left of the other 3%, he says that it's for insurance. Hearts always need insurance. Hahahahahaha. As cheesy and amusing at it sounds, I think he's bloody right.

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To every "Megan Fox Maniacs" friends of mine out there.
(you faggots).
I told you so.

Enjoy The Transformers 2 everyone!
;D

Belacan anyone?

2009-06-12T21:37:00.007+08:00

^My Darling, is forever cute.

^ The cousins are all back to their respective daily routines.

^He's already spending his 1st day at Jakarta.
"& you better bring back Rossa for me, mac"

^My Jakarta Girl has gone back home last Tuesday.
" Giginya kok di pagarin deh.. lol "

^ & i'm off to Melaka tomorrow morning.

;)

Specially-made.

2009-06-04T00:39:00.003+08:00

Everything is going as planned.
Everything seems fine so far.
The only thing that's not is that the lifestyle that i'm practicing right now is actually risking my own health again.

1 word.
Sleep.

It Is Time

2009-05-29T22:15:00.002+08:00

The Long Wait.
Is Here.

Quater-Finals.
I'll be in that ring, in about 12hours from now.

Say Goodbye to this high fever of mine.
& say hello to Mr. Gold medal.
Insyallah
:)

Smile When You're Sick.

2009-05-27T10:40:00.004+08:00

I had my last intensive run yesterday.
1 round around Singapore Poly, which is about 3.2km.
It was drizzling & cold.
I couldnt take it much.
So i made it a short one.

And here i am on Today, feeling all sick and sucky.
Especially when i woke up in the morning, and when i've reached home.
Please please, oh god please...
This is NOT the time to get Sick.

Nevertheless, i am still going out there putting the best smile i can.
I ain't gonna pamper this weak body which needs lotsa positive thinking
to make sure i get well soon.
Very Soon.

Black Monday

2009-05-25T15:13:00.004+08:00

No matter how busy we can be.
With Assignments. Projects. Tests.
Never Forget to take a break, & enjoy life to the fullest!
Well as for that Maniac dude you see up there, he's the class rep.
& as he was told to look after the others and make sure everyone
behave themselves in the absence of the lecturers i/c...
He was the 1st to do as many crazy stuff he could..
To enjoy each & every moment he's got!

And someone is getting so envious with my lessons every Thursday!
& that someone wishes that i've got a much much more tougher semester ahead instead.
So mean are you.. hehehehe..
xP

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It was more than 2 years back.
& here i am, felling all worried and scared.
Because the long wait is here, this weekend.
Tomorrow shall be my last intensive preparation
before giving a rest to the body.
I'll be there, wearing that vest, focusing in my game.
Hopefully, i'm 90% prepared when i get into the ring at that very moment.
All i need is a big bunch of people i call "LOVE",
cheering hard for me at the back.
That will surely complete the other 10% that i need.
:)

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To see those sleepy eyes & make them and even mine less sleepier.

Syarif + Cute little guy hanging from his pocket = Happy Uncle

Uncle + Mr. Happy = Happy Uncle

:)

It's coming in a new wave.

2009-05-18T22:26:00.005+08:00

Always make sure that your feet always touches the ground,
no matter how high you try to reach the sky.
- Syarif

I Turn to You - Christina Aguilera

When I'm lost...in the rain
In your eyes I know I'll find the light
To light my way
When I'm scared
Losing ground
When my world is going crazy
You can turn it all around
And when I'm down you're there
Pushing me to the top
You're always there giving me all you've got

For a shield, from the storm
For a friend, for a love
to keep me safe and warm
I turn to you
For the strength, to be strong
For the will to carry on
For everything you do
For everything that's true
I turn to you-ooh

when I lose...the will to win
I just reach for you
And I can reach the sky again
I can do anything
'Cause your love is so amazing
'Cause your love inspires me
And when I need a friend
You're always on my side
Giving me faith
taking me through the night

(Joined by Background Vocals)
For a shield, from the storm
For a friend, for a love
To keep me safe and warm
I turn to you
For the strength, to be strong
For the will to carry on
For everything you do
I turn to you-ooh,ohhh

For the arms to be my shelter
Through all the rain
For truth that will never change
For someone to lean on
For a heart I can rely on through anything
For the one who...I can run to...oh
I turn to you

(Joined by Background Vocals)
For a shield from the storm
For a friend, for a love
To keep me safe and warm, yeah yeah
I turn to you
For the strength to be strong
For the will to carry on
For everything you do
For everything that's true
For everything you do - ooh oh
For everything that's true
I turn to you...ooh.

My weekend was fully packed. On Saturday, I was already at work as early as 6.30am.
It's kinda feels really good to be at work somehow, doing the cool AV stuff.
The entire day was busy handling Meetings and Conferences from SGH.
And then i'm off to Esplanade watching the Youth Voices Acapella performance.
Wonderful people. Outstanding Voices. Splendid Performance.
& that's when i got hooked with this song from ChristinaA, it was sang by a pretty young lady.
The lyrics are really meaningful.
At times when you need someone to turn to. It takes a song to remind you.

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I'm giving you a big smile, from my heart.
Thank you

Flipping away those Flops.

2009-05-15T23:17:00.004+08:00

Mr. Chef is becoming very worried when his dish doesn't taste delicious.
That's the part when Mr. Chef would add more spices to his dish.
He will do anything to make his dish taste fantastic.
Because Mr. Chef is very sure that others would be very delighted enjoying his dish the next moment.

Subtitute Mr. Chef to Mr. Syarif
Subtitute "the dish" to "his life".

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It's all up to me one way or another.
Because i'm the one who has been eyeing for it for about 2 years plus.
I'm the one who's putting all the effortall this while.
Through thick & thin, no one else would understand how much i've been fighting this through.
& when i think too much about it, it overcomes my mind.
All of a sudden the exact incident that happened 2 years back came struck in my mind.
Crying over my defeat.
The soft-hearted Syarif couldn't hold back those tears in front of everyone.
The close ones couldn't hold back their tears too. I could even remember that there were even anonymous faces who came hugging me with their teary eyes on their faces.
Because he was so confident that he had won it. In fact, so was everyone else.
& i'm very sure that those who has been there with me all this while would really understand how much this means to me.
Why is it so much of a big deal to me anyway you may asked.
Eventhough it's just a small arena that the world has to offer.
It means alot to me before i make my leave.
Because i want to leave with a big bang.
Do you feel me?

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I was utterly disappointed and frustrated with myself during and after Silat training.
I've been telling my mother that she's going to see a new trophy added to my lifetime trophies showcase at home soon.
"Insyallah" she replied each time i told her the same thing again & again.
However, I'm not at the standard that i am supposed to be at this point of time.
I have not yet reached the standard that will assure me of that championship title.
Where i'm standing right now is far from where i'm supposed to be.
My techniques have gone down the drain.
Whatever crap that i was doing during training is definitely not going to help me.
Some makciks at the side would go gaga over how explosive i was being during the match.
Telling me how much i've developed all this while.
But all i see is mistakes over mistakes being repeated.

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I'm really worried.
My morales is running low.
I really need the support and motivations from the people around me.

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Auntie is making Uncle feeling very very bad about being late for school.
Now Uncle is really determined to make sure he's early for every lesson.
But oh no no Auntie, Uncle still have a good memory.
Unlike Auntie.
=P

^ Fisherman Newbie learning how to tie ropes.

Two Be or Not Two Be.

2009-05-12T23:38:00.006+08:00

2 rivals. I'm already in one of them.
But i want the other one too.
So i took up both of them.
I'm risking myself.
But afterall, it's my choice.

Therefore, currently i'm a sub committee member of SMAC.
& in the other hand,
I'm a Standing Committee of Welfare in SPSU.
Oh yeah bebeh!
2 is the number.
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2 weeks. That's all i got.
It's definitely not enough.
Neither would i be able to spend the entire 2 weeks preparing myself.
I've been sacrifising my evenings doing my workout routines regardless of how tired i am after class.
Running to gain back that stallion's stamina.
Pushing myself all out until i even puke at the end of the lap.

Why all the trouble?
I have to.
Because my hunger for that Gold Medal is getting as large as the world to me.
Let it be the tears of joy this time.
Not because of a defeat.
& 2 weeks is all i've got.
2 is the number.

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1 name.
2 different personalities.
2 different stories.
2 different prospects.
It all comes back to 1 decision.
Still, 2 is the number.

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On a side note;

I'm no longer a lil boy now. Living in a very open world, i start to adapt to the different world i've been that before. Network is the most important thing in this world right now. & to open up our minds to all sorts of aspects in this world we live in.

p.s. No I'm Not A Gay. I definite like Girls. In fact, i love girls.. lol

Shins & Sins

2009-05-05T23:34:00.003+08:00

Again & again.
The word "Reality" would resurrect from our world of "Fantasies".
Each and everyone of us would be enjoying every bit of our lives.
Too much of these would definitely take us more time to realise that we are living in Reality.
Anyone guilty of this? *nodding my head*

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& of course, being with a group of wonderful people we are close with would actually make us not realised that they aren't really wonderful people that we think.
These cases are the ones that we really would want to avoid.
To enjoy our present and hoping that it stays on in the future.
We are in the future of the past that we used to be.
Is it different from what we were hoping back in the past?

All i can do is Smile, & don't look back in anger.
*chehh Oasis or what.. lol*

Regardless of what happens in our past. We live in the present.
Sometimes the past makes u feel bad enjoying your present.
But i keep telling myself, to hell with all that because i'm enjoying this.
& again, this isn't my first time saying this in my posts.
I'm loving my present, hell yeah.
Lol.

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Scenario: Having Lunch with friends at school. Some has finished our food. Some could not.

Ash: Eh Islam ade mengatakan yang kita tak boleh makan sampai terlalu kenyang kan? Dosa kan..

The others: Yeap2. Thats's True.

Me: *looks at my empty Nasi Ayam Plate* Eh! Kalau gitu aku dah banyak buat dosa seh! *shock*

All: *Burst out Laughing*

Oh yes, even the new friends know how H-U-G-E my tummy can expands when eating.
Now i really think twice when i order my food.
:D

0.o

2009-05-03T01:49:00.002+08:00

The only one still not asleep yet at home.
Pitched dark room with lappy screen light only.
I can't even see the big chair beside me.
Lightnings and thunders blasting through the night.
Sudden downpour.
Brother's light snoring sounds cute though.
Like Kambing Kacang kena tickle.
Lightings & thunder is starting to scare the shit out of me now.
I need to pee.
My face turning oily.
Tummy making all sorts of music.
Itchy left armpit.
Steamy eyes.

I'm going to bed.
:D

Confession or Sympathy.

2009-05-02T13:28:00.003+08:00

Oh God.
I know i have the tendency of hurting people when it comes to contact sports.
Be it intentional or by accident.
Surely, i'll hurt some.
No matter how old or how young they are compared to my age.
I can't help it, seriously.
Because most of the time it's unintentional.
Unless they keep on testing my oh-so-high patience.

However, i can't take this karma that you're giving me back.
I know, i know.
What goes around, comes around.
I've been controlling myself all this while.
But the pain hits in continuously, one after another.

Oh god.
I'm really sorry.
Please stop this karma.
I can't bare the sufferings.

p.s. I'm a good boy yannow );

Shake it or fart it out.

2009-05-01T23:35:00.003+08:00

One of the best moments in life is when you get to..

Spent your time with your love ones.
Share the love and laughter together.
See their graceful smiles,etc.

The ones that you will never get bored being with.

Even if their laughter sounds way much worse than a donkey.
Even if they smell a lil bit like a raw fish after their tiring day.
Even if they go crazy when you're dead serious about some issues.
Even if this,
Even if that...

They still make you smile all day long until its bedtime.
When you're lucky, they appear in your dreams.
With all those butterflies & flowers.
It makes you not wanting to wake up because you're enjoying those sweetdreams.
But when you do, who's that someone you would be thinking of?
Oh yeah, don't start smiling in front of your screen while reading this.

Someone who makes your heart go tralalalas~
& not "make your pee-pee goes kedoink-doink-doink" guys.

It's Someone Special alright.
So enjoy all those moments that every souls like us wants.
Until it's time to go....

;)

A slight sacrifice, for a huge relief.

2009-04-29T08:32:00.005+08:00

There are times when no matter what, you gotta hold that big piece of shit thats at the tip of your Asshole.

As big and painful as it may be, you asshole gotta bare the pain.
You tell yourselves, you ain't gonna let that shit happens and mess up your pants.
Because if you do, the smell of shit would lingers around you & kill the people around you.

But sometimes, no matter how hard you try.
Even with the mightiest effort being put in, the shit has to go.
And so, a man gotta do what a man gotta do.
*poop*(whatever sounds your shit makes)
The shit goes.

Despite the bloody mess that was made, there's one thing you benefit for sure.
The sense of relief, especially for that poor lil ass of yours.
The bad smell, the humiliation, the hatred among others,etc. Its all temporary.
What's important is that you are very sure that the excruciating burden no longer exist for your ass.

Life is full of shit for everyone. Definitely.
Be it expecting or unexpected.
Shit happens.
So it's up to ourselves to handle these shits.
Some of us would be more laid back and able to handle things calmly.
However, the kind of people who has difficulty staying calm would eventually suffer more.

At times, i felt that certain things that happened to me are simply the shittiest things that's ruining my entire mood. But hey, that's life right?
You gotta face all this shits sometimes.
Just relax.
& Smile.

Engine goes Va Vaa Voom!

2009-04-28T10:18:00.003+08:00

7th day of school. Here's my 1st post.
So why the absence? I'm simply enjoying my Poly life right now &
that i go back home everyday feeling all beat and lazy to update the blog.
hehe xD

Many things have been happening around lately. Mainly Beautiful things. I like it(:

I came to a point whereby i took a few hours just staring at the strs in the sky, thinking about how my secondary school friends have been doing respectively.
Some managed to still go to the same tertiary institution and spent time with the same old clique, many have gone to their own separate ways.
We wake up every morning to a new day, a new life compared to what we used to have for the past 4 years.
Many would have been used to the new environment, some would still trying their best to adapt with the cultural shock.
Some may be enjoying the present and have forgotten the past. Some may still be wishing for the past to repeat itself.
So which side are they at? Which side am i standing right now?

"Awkwardness"
It's the word that many of us would feel.
A feeling that i myself can't deny.
& obviously the feeling that none of us should have after the 4 years we have been spending so close together.

If you happen to read this post friends, do leave a tag. Would love to hear from you guys. I hope you guys are doing very well :)

Because I'm Enjoying My Life.

2009-04-22T21:43:00.004+08:00

All The Single Milos.

2009-04-12T21:35:00.002+08:00

Singapore Maritime Academy FO Camp.
Best Camp i ever had in my life.
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Because Group ELECTRO just can't keep our asses shut.
"Buto" here n there to all the other groups throughout the camp.
& still end up being the Best Group of the Camp.
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"Prima Coochie Coochie" didn't won but losing "her" boobs twice on stage was the main storyline.
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Finally, i get to experience "it", but without realising it at first.
Only to realise it the night after, due to certain clarifications.
Sharing, talking with "it" in the pitch dark lift.
Just like in the "Coming Soon" movie.
"Thanks yeah! See you later!" in a cheerful tone, was the last thing i said to "it".
_ _ _

Stay tune for the full, 4-days camp experience of mine yeah?
Because right now, I only miss my comfy bed.
:)

Step In

2009-04-09T00:36:00.004+08:00

Pack. Pack. Pack the Backpack.

I just hate packing the backpack.
But i can't wait for the 4-days of excitement that's all packed.
Singapore Maritime Academy FO Camp.

But for now, it's time for me to hit the sack.

Wake me up on Monday, babe. Because Monday IS Monday.

Crazy But New But Still Crazy

2009-04-07T00:00:00.003+08:00

It's time.
It's time for the AV kid to put aside that name tag and hang those uniforms for now.
Because what's definitely waiting this April is none other than my Tertiary School.
So i'm putting the part-time job a pause at the moment. Hopefully when the school term holiday comes, i could grab some cash again once in awhile.

Nevertheless, the name doesn't stops completely at the Grand Copthorne Waterfront Hotel.
It's like a job for passion instead cash. My name stands strong in the company's soccer team. Representing together with the grown-ups in the SHA Inter-Hotel League. Smallest at age. Biggest role upfront.

But the fact that im still young, fresh and not physically up to the standards required, it's the toughest challenge that i've plunged myself in this arena. Pushing my way through all out! Because it's the precious experience that i'll be bringing back home at the end of the day.

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As the weeks goes by, i kept telling myself how unprepared i am for school. Being said the untouched wishlist i've made to prepare myself for school and the stagnant bank savings i've made with my salaries from the last few days of work was the issue.

Although i still didn't managed to fulfill my entire wishlist(more like "want"list.heh), i finally managed to cross out the Top 2 items on that list in just half a day!

1. School Shoe:

^Adidas Originals, ZX 800.
The last time i bought a pair of casual shoes for myself was 2 years back at India during my Exchange Programme. Green & Orange. Being the 2 favourite colour of mine. I grabbed that last piece at the Leftfoot, Far East Plaza.

2. School bag:

^Oakley Icon Backpack 3.0
http://oakley.com/catalog/products/icon-backpack-3-0

The last time i bought a school bag for myself was that Black/Lime Green Converse Sling, 2 years back too! The last backpack i had for myself was that Spy bag bought as my PSLE gift(4 years ago?). Still doing good till now but i bet this new Oakley backpack worth a lifetime! I simply have a fetish over such rugged backpack and boy let me tell you how much i love it! Especially it's in my favourite colour, Orange!
:D

Well obviously i would LOVE to finish up my entire Wishlist(2 down, 5 to go). That would include a brand new handphone for myself(because i never have one of my own till now!), Customising my Lappy's skin because the Navy Blue outer is so dull, a Running shoes for myself(waiting for the Asics Sale), & the list goes on...

However i can't continue ticking that wishlist down for now because i've spent half of my entire bank savings on that 2 items above.
Still, im a happy goober for now.

Mum, Dad, Granny, I'm ready for school!
LOL
:)

Busy Bumblebee.

2009-03-21T02:00:00.005+08:00

The most busy week of March '09.
A glimpse of the week will do, until i get plenty of time with my dear pc again.
Lots of randomness. Lots of work. Lots of Joy & laughter.
& not to forget, the Pain.

^The Moments of Glory.
That little seconds that leaves us smiling from ear to ear the seconds after.
The tensed moments shared with the big crowd cheering all around.

^The Painful Moments.
Every hard efforts being put in will eventually goes through lots of pain
before we can feel the sense of achievement.
I had mine. In a split second. Just like that.

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& to put that pain away, we add a lil sugar to our evening with a horror movie, Coming Soon.

My very first horror movie at the cinema.
I hate the part when the ghost goes, "Do you really want to see me die?!"

^ I'm the one screaming my lungs off & she's the one giggling at my reactions instead.
She's the brave one *thumbs up*

^ That's how i end my busy Weekdays.

& i still have 2 days of weekends fully packed with over-flowing schedule.
Here it goes...

Nemesis

2009-03-12T01:40:00.002+08:00

Many would have probably seen this video;

But wait till you see this one;

*Laughing OUT LOUD*
:D